Secrets

The night holds secrets of hidden longing
Flamed circling desire til the break of day
Agony of conscious denial whispering
Wordless tales of thoughts coming to play

Depth bearing are the quicksands of lust
Arcadian sinking of silenced urges
Yearning of ferocious recurrent thrusts
Quick wave of desire submerges

Trembling, aching fingers, dried lips
Sentient drift with every passion
Hand craving the tender capture of hips
Fossilized moment of flowing emotion

Yet a barren field of frozen reflection
Forbidden path we like to borrow
Sweet devilish temptation
Filled with ecstacy but sorrow...

Stillness

 

Under a starless night
On a high standing bridge
How appealing, is the river's sight
Dark, deep & unabridged

 

The soothing cold to freeze my pains
May death takes holds to mute my hell
Dispersing the poison from within my veins
Freeing my soul from its hollow shell

 

Too many disappointments
Turned suffocating torments
By repetitive abandonments
Scattering life into fragments

Put out the light

Put out the light...

My heart has gone to sleep

I give up the fight

Pain now forthwith too deep

What strains may come

When all hope & faith

Once strong now gone

Shall follow into death?

All else has failed

This is the final fall

All dreams long sailed

None I can no more recall

In darkness, I, sleepless, stay

in this room raped of all memories

From what seems a lifetime away

Once filled with desires only youth carries

Heart violated of all tenderness

Left to unquestionable blankness

Shaping the lines of drowning sadness
  Burying me under total hopelessness

I will be silent now...
Eyes closed, for this is the end  
Comes sleep, comes the countdown

Then let me...... let me die still unawakened

Whispers...

So many of my smiles begin with you
Since you first gleamed upon my sight
Constant day dreams whispers of you
 And nights longing to hold you tight

Rustlings of Passion taking over me
Breathtaking fantasy, raging wild & free
Where my want isnt of despair but of love
Sent from Arcadia to me above

Bringing faith to an atheist's heart
Imploring the heavens for grant
For you & I, no longer be part
And put an end to my torment

All I can not say, gives my heart a glow
That seldom have seen but only you will know

So take away my sighs & my soul's aching blight
Come closer, come closer, all my days, all my nights

Home Soil

The sun rose on me
On the African Continent
On the north west territory
Where beauty meets torment


Dry unforgiving harsh land
Where the sun is King in its mighty light
Bathed by an ocean of shifting sand
Offering an infinite burning sight


Relentless wind, hot and strong
Steadily blowing with a hollow sound
Shaping the Desert's callous character
Invisible merciless powerful master


A Boundless sky, vast & deeply blue
Witness the retched souls & the subdued
Through thirsty lips whispering mercy too
Begging the heavens, hopes strewed


The horizon promises much hardship
Scorching heat & tests of faith
The element's forceful grip
Until you face your very own wraith


Tarfaya & Smara, my waking world
Desolate wastelands where silence thrives
Sandstorms are born here to whirl & twirl
Existence suspended in time, engulfing lives


I miss the stars filled sky, in the cold of night
Promises of Edens amongst enduring times
Justifying every pains to be worth a fight
Forging dreams in the night's paradigm

Happiness

Talk about joy, talk about happiness

For our world is in so much need!

Uncessant continuous strain of fitful darkness

From men's ever generous giving greed

Lighten your heart and speak of beauty

Keeping away from darkened paths

Forged by the inclined to vice & ugly

Too weakened to live absent of wrath 

Open your soul, waken your heart

Bestow delight to the weary ears
Such wonders & wisdom to impart
A soothing breeze for many to hear

A mother's open arms, full of gentle care
A lover's blissful embrace, promises of eden ahead
The world has enough grief without your woe to bare
So tell tales of joy and beauty instead...

Storm 1990

From the port of Agadir, we embarked
Aboard tug ''Delia'', a salvage boat
Across the Atlantic to depart
Gradually loosing sight of any coast...


Longing west Africa
And onto the Gulf of Cadiz
Heading north, towards Britannica
Swiftly dead ahead alee the breeze...


Little did we know the Sea's intention
For that night in the bay of Biscay
Many would go to their perdition
In total darkness & disarray


Darkened clouds, rumbling thunder
Squall howling as if warning!
To fear, the crew soon to surrender
As waves in chorus started battering


With each hit, the tug shuddered raucously
Waves raging wild, in incessant grind
Unremittingly lifted & thrown brutally
Against each ferocious returning tide 


A groaning hull boisterous shock
Shot out of the ocean in a deafening roar
Clinging in despair, running amok
Atheist muttering prayers & to Implore
   
Reminded of the quiver at each lashing wave
Assaulted by water, salt & bitter cold
The crewmen held their posts strong & brave
Hoping against hope standing bold


 Distress flares illuminating the sky red
Radio screeching MAYDAY MAYDAY
With strength decayed, men gripped by dread   
From nearby boats sinking away


A lifetime that night did last
Rocking and rolling we strived to stand
But with great tenacity remained steadfast
Devoided of all choices but to withstand


First rays of dawn revealing the full waves height
The men, exhausted, froze, in renewed fear & self doubt
24hrs on, this storm does not wilt but to stride
Men, weakened searching for last surges of clout


After 36hrs against all odds & the elements
With a shattered outer hull we come to rest
Now a still sea phantomed by chaos resonant
Never before we endured such test...

Dedicated to Tug Delia, double hull 3,000 HP sea monster & its crew who kept us alive during that terrible storm that night while two nearby boats sank leaving no survivors. 
Waves were of 13 meters high. 

Time...

Tears are words the heart can not express

For too many are painful, harsh & cruel

Our very core, weakened under duress

Throat tightened and tacitly rueful

Heart on fire in a burning chest
More fervently sigh after sigh
Hastened in grief and in distress
A bleeding soul seeming to die

Longing for time to quickly come
To heal at once these unseen wounds
Unseen but felt a thousand fold
Awaiting seasons to dispel gloom

Pass Winter come to Spring
With all wonders this season brings
Atone my heart inner scarring
To once more blooms & wildly sings

I hold you in my heart

I hold you in my heart

For my arms just shan’t

From the very early start

This sickly sweet torment

A quench-less thirst

A hunger I cannot Fill

Loving anguish, turned curse

Is for you what I feel

As I daze in your eyes so green

I am consumed with you

The most beautiful I have seen

And ache the very touch of you

The heart alone has its reasons

To succumb to such forbidden devotion

Unbearable loving emotions

Secret I dare not to mention

You are the treasure I hide to keep

Buried in my chest’s own heartbeats

The one & only so many do seek

The one who would make me complete

A barely audible whisper

Surround my thoughts of lust & sin

A dream state I relish to linger

Shivers overtaking my skin

Desire of lips tenderly touching

Hands passionately holding

A sweet embrace quietly waiting

Patience Painfully persisting…

So close, yet away from my reach

I will be waiting for all seasons passing

Shall life be kind to grant me my wish

I vow to give you my heart forever loving

What is meant to be

Will always find its way

So I hope, beg & pray

Fate to bring you to me one day

...I hold you in my heart...
To a special someone

THE CREED OF THE BEAST

I am your dark side

A cold wave of destruction

In the night of your soul i hide

Whispering sweet bloody temptation

Your blood feels thin

As i clutch at your heart

To your fear, give in!

Before i torn you apart

You'll pray & hope to resist

Closing your eyes, clenching your fists

For the voices to finally desist

A feeble faith to stand alone amidst

Brain wrapped in chains

Consciousness fades away

You break all restrains

A murderous rage you obey...

Envy, Lust, Wrath, all will begin

As you fall into the abysses of each of these sins

Swallowed in flames, you'll burn from within

Hate oozing from each pores of your skin

While the night reigns

Hunt down your preys

Their blood filled veins

Soon spilled away

You will rape their souls

Invade their bodies & mind

As your ripper within howls

Hellish wrath & lust combined

You will rip them open

Crotch to chin

Tormented in pain

With a cold blade of steel...

Dark blood gushing out on your face

Their screams filling your ears

An orgasm of furry you will taste

Crying a liberated flow of tears

On their lungs, you shall carve your name

As they breathe you until their last moment

A death they will meet so inhumane

For your own twisted amusement

Breathe in their fumes

Of their grossly opened guts

Sickening stench inner perfume

Steaming out from a thousand cuts

Life leaving their eyes

As sun rays come to rise

Your inner beast satisfies

By the blood lust of their demise

Your humanity to awake

As your Demon asleep & gone

The horror of your deeds taking shape

Oh tell me, tell me, what have you done?!

Razor claws & fangs that gnash deep

Hold the Bible & grab a crucifix

For the Demon back again as you try to sleep

Night after night reborn as the Phoenix

Tattoo

I have a tattoo in mind
 

To be an expression of my being
 

Body & soul that ink would bind
 

To give my existence a written meaning

You design one that's unique
 

& invite me onto the chair...
 

The pain better than any pleasure i seek
 

For ur art is better than any clothes i could wear

Force your needle into me
 

On my flesh and across my bones
 

Carve the long Dark lines deeply
 

& unravel ur creation amid my groans

Give it expression & color
 

For i am ur masterpiece and you my sculptor

Use red for my Fury
 

Black for my mystery
 

& many shades in between to tell my story...

Give it wing. give it shapes
 

The silent Roar of a dragons breath
 

Keeper of a shuddering heart
 

Burning fire of an unleashed wrath

Secret Admirer

If i were to fall in love, it would have to be with you                    If i were to give myself, it would have to be to you                         I have loved you for so long                        Wishing your arms to hold me tight                         I can not ignore what is too strong                          Or even want to have to fight                         I keep this in my heart in silence,                           For you do not see me...                             As only from a distance,                              Do i get to tell you implicitely                              This aching desire of kissing you,                                 To caress your lips so fine,                                    And so very slowly too...                                     Steal your heart to just be mine...                                  Feeling the warmth of your mouth                                  The taste of your breath,                                    A fire in me you arouse...                                    And suddenly brings me faith                                     The tenderness of you tongue,                                    Gently with mine entwined                                     I know to you I belong                                       Body, heart & mind...

         This would not be just a simple kiss
          But left open for one meaning...
       The wish of an eternal Bliss
            And the hope of a new beginning...

      

Bali Holiday Chinese New Year 2012

Off to the airport,

It's holiday Time...

My sandals & just a short,

Cause' I still don't have a dime!

A Limo to come get us

All the way to our terminal

Unnecessary but pleasant fuss

Bound to boost the moral!

Passport & Visa

Check in & Customs

All in order, ''Et Voila''

Departure lounge here it comes!

Looking at this big steel bird

Anxiety I start to feel...

One in ten millions chances I heard

To free fall and to squeal!

Before take off, I shall pray

Not to end up on an island ''Cast Away''

With a football friend named ''Wilson''

Keeping me from going crazy all alone!

''One of the safest way to travel''

I hear a passenger say...

And the hostess to yell

''Life vests under, shall you hear MAYDAY-MAYDAY''

Now all switch off your phones!

...And I don't want to hear no moans!

Keep your eyes on me,

And listen carefully.

''Just Safety Precautions''

In an -unlikely- event of an emergency

Yet stressing strict instructions 

To observe diligently!

       

''Emergency Exits, here, here and here!''

''Oxygen masks above and lit pathways there''

Giving me all reasons to fear

Ski diving from the air!

But let's not get dramatic,

Disasters seldom happen...

Unless we have a fanatic,

Ready, onboard & well hidden!

Where was it six years ago...

Men in robes shouting ''Allah''

Blew up a bunch of white people

To shag 47 virgin fatma?...

Where are we going already?!

Oh! I remember! -to Bali-!

I've got everything I need

And a plan for each day

Most importantly to feed

At every hours of the day!

Captain announces our landing

Now all excited, this is for real!

Bag on my shoulder, first standing

My impatience, I try to conceal!

Captain says ''Sorry, in your seats you will stay!''

We have a sick passenger, out of luck

So until a doctor comes our way,

All together you are stuck!

Staff rushing on their way

Panic in their eyes

Defibrillator without delay

This is drama TV full size!

Passenger's wife crying

Sick guy wheezing

Other passengers waiting

And few good souls praying...

Freedom at last! We disembark!

At fast speed we rush & go

Cant wait to reach the sack,

Everyone's just too slow!!

We jump in a taxi

''Direct'' to our hotel

But the driver's a newbie

We turn quiet and very pale!

Few wrong turns

And a close collision

Our enthusiasm curbs

Projecting hospitalization!

The resort we reach!

And so the end of our ordeal...

The driver we ditch

With his driving ''alla Kill Bill''!

Here we are in our bungalow!

With a ''spidy'' in the sink saying hello!

I jump high, adrenalin pumping!

Grabbing a glass, both hands shaking,

Getting closer, Spidy jumping

Asthma triggering and glass breaking!

No way, wont sleep, cant sleep

Til' I finally get rid,

Of that bloody arachnid!

All done, we crash in bed exhausted!

In this haven of tranquility......and bugs....

Until an army of frogs croaked our way,

Where are them bloody earplugs!?

The next morning, starving for breakfast

We decide to brave the Balinese roads

Helmets, padded clothes and luck a must,

We rent a vespa, Slouch shoulders and curbs our toes!

Back looking like two hedgehogs in shock

Perhaps a car would be safer...

The roads here worse than in Bangkok

If not a tank, extra armor! 

Map, first aid kit & religious faith!

Car rental does not provide insurance!

''Don't worry you'll be just safe''

Kidnapping my bank card if  by mischance!

Here we go jungle roads!

Andmy first time driving on this side...

Which way do I turn at crossroads?!

Ill try my best not to collide...

''Watch the ditch by my side!''

''And the suicidal dogs crossing!''

Somebody's gonna die

If I don't start focusing!

Intensive orientation training!

Between ''Dempasar'' and ''Uddu''...

At every street corners we are stopping

Where are we? We haven't got a clue!

Road signs are handy!

If only not hidden behind trees!

''For goodness sake drive slowly!''

''How many times shall i say please?''

Up the mountain we go

In the fog and the pestering rain...

Missing a harsh turn also

My friend to scream and to complain!

Huge lorries running at snail's pace

Second gear our only speed

Patience we must embrace

25km/h we can't exceed!!!

We stop at a charming ''restaurant''

A good coffee we were hoping

Our first sip with a loud grunt

What the hell is this dark thing???

''Balinese Coffee Madam,

Very sweet with bits in it''

More like liquid brown jam

Couldn't swallow but only spit!

Banana pancake sounds appealing!

I order one hoping to better taste

Oily uncooked batter with garlic in

Or some dodgy old dirty paste...

Ill stick to packed crisps

And bottled water will do

Nothing else to pass my lips

Nothing at all, really, thank you!

Lazy day at the pool

I end up red as a lobster

Looking like a bicolor fool

Or a giant talking blister!

Hiding in pain in every shades

I wait to stroll in the gardens

At least until all sunlight fades

Ill get out when it darkens...

Alas as a new born cretin,

I didn't think I was gonna be eaten 

And to death viciously bitten

By the flying dirty dozen!

Burned & itchy

This is nature at it's best

In traffic jams & sweaty

If only the pain could be repressed

I'm too proud so I wont moan

Ill smile and pretend all the way

And when all alone

This is painkillers buffet!

Holiday coming to an end

Time to come back to reality

I hope red is the trend

Ill be glowing very brightly!